Vanessa Bryant on Coping After the Deaths of Kobe and Gigi

Vanessa Bryant is opening up about how she’s coping since losing her husband, Kobe, and 13-year-old daughter, Gianna, in a helicopter crash on Jan. 26, 2020. The 38-year-old is the latest cover star of People‘s Women Changing the World issue, and in the accompanying interview, she admits that there are days when she doesn’t feel strong.

“I can’t say that there aren’t days when I feel like I can’t survive to the next,” Vanessa said. “This pain is unimaginable [but] you just have to get up and push forward. Lying in bed crying isn’t going to change the fact that my family will never be the same again. But getting out of bed and pushing forward is going to make the day better for my girls and for me. So that’s what I do.”

Vanessa revealed that she looks to Kobe and Gigi when she needs inspiration to keep going, while her daughters, Natalia, Bianka, and Capri, help her “smile through the pain. “They inspire me to try harder and be better every day. Their love is unconditional and they motivate me in so many different ways,” she added. “I want to make Kobe, Gigi, Natalia, Bianka and Capri proud.”

Since Kobe and Gigi’s deaths, Vanessa has leaned on her family and friends for support. “It really takes a village,” she told the outlet. “That includes ‘aunties’ and ‘uncles’ that have stepped in to be there for us and get us through holidays, special milestones, and birthdays . . . They’ve shown their love and support through this horrible year and I don’t know how I could’ve managed without them.”

She continued, “The outpouring of love and support is so meaningful to me. I don’t think I’d be as strong without everyone’s prayers and positive vibes sent our way . . . I really want to hug everyone that has prayed for my family and me . . . I am so thankful and touched by their love.” Check out Vanessa’s full interview in this week’s issue of People.